Acceptance..

So many things come in life and leave. With somethings you get attached very strongly and with some other you don't. Typically things 'coming' in life don't excite/harm you much, but the exit impact depends on how much you were attached to that thing..attachment grows with time..waiting for a particular course of action related to that thing to happen in your life..hoping ki kuch ho sakta hai acha/personal..but Nature has it's own secret plans..and you fight with 'I don't know who' when Nature's plan and your desire go opposite to each other..but at the end we, human beings, have to submit to Nature's plan/decision if we are to evolve and progress..being stubborn and UN-changeable will only harm/deteriorate us in long term..accept whatever Nature has to give you..may be Nature has better plans for you that's why it did not fulfill your desires..may be Nature wants you learn and experience and hence evolve...though this process can be sometimes very very harsh/cruel/unexpected...but accept it...acceptance solves almost half of the problems...but then we, human beings, should try to analyze the events that pained us and try to draw conclusions and get everything clear as time goes on...like where did I make mistake? where did others make mistake? where did not I think from heart/mind and acted like a fool/stubborn?...getting these things clear from the painful events that have happened makes us evolve quickly and avoids the same mistake/event later in life...

memories may bother you as you move on
but you can fight it, come on
accept life as it comes to you
for you don't know what better plans are there for you

that's all for now...

Walk to remember...

I have been told that your life's big decisions/choices are made in heaven...you just follow them... everything is written beforehand by so called God...many a times we fight over bad things happening in our life, we get happy when good things happen in life....in both cases we deal with God...blame God for wrong things and say thanks to God for good things...but the most basic point we miss here is that we stop enjoying the journey of life...life is not about being sad or being happy...to me happiness and enjoyment are different...you can enjoy even after the most cry-ful moments...thinking how foolish u were or the other person was...whenever u cry think of the good memories u ever had in ur life...the purpose of memories is that...and no matter how bad a person has hit u, treated u..if he/she has treated u good once or helped u in his/her lifetime..it means somewhere in his/her heart/mind u have a place, a good place...bcoz no one remains same, everyone changes...and that's what life is....if ppl don't change u won't move on and if u don't move on..u haven't explored the whole world...life is all about enjoying the journey exploring different ppl, different places and different stuffs....deal with as many ppl,places n stuff as u can...it's good...it's experiencing...bcoz everything changes, everything expires...and we should not be "chep" with any person, as is depicted in the movie "pyaar ka punchnama"...if a person doesn't like to mingle with u, don't try to put fight to mingle with him/her....if u r on right side of the road they will come over to u and talk to u, if that's what is written in the so-called destiny...don't let ur feelings make u look like "chep" or cheap to the society...feelings are natural...they will come and go as per their wishes...but it should not hamper our personality, out behavior...
All the hard and bad things in life has taught me at least one thing, I am independent of others..ppl will come into my life and may impact my life for a while (good or bad)...but it's ultimately me who gets to decide how I should live my life....I have stopped fighting for a good relationship between me and any other person (other than my family members) in this world..because any relationship is made up there..I can put fight and get things, multiple things..but a relationship is not a thing to be achieved by hard work...live ur life as u r and have been in ur childhood days, free of any burden but sincerely finishing up ur assigned jobs...and right ppl will come to u naturally and become a part of ur life...This is precisely the walk I have ridden till now...I hope the rest of my walk is more about finding my true self and achieving things I have planned in my childhood days and doing good to society and more importantly live life...

As I see my past
let me remember the good memories I had with you
because my life is going to move fast
let me not wipe out the good memories I had with you

As I live my present
let me make every effort to achieve things I have dreamt of
because tomorrow will not behold this present
and I don't wanna regret I missed things I have dreamt of

As I walk into my future
let me think of my self
Because when I get to retire
I wanna look for my life-book in my shelf...

Mere sisters...

it's that time of the year when you eagerly wait for a thin rope to be tied on your hands by the most loving ladies of your age group and you call them Sister...but you don't want to give them gifts I mean material gifts...frankly I have never ever waited to gift them on this so-called rakshabandhan day...if I have wanted to gift them I do so irrespective of what day it is of the year...and when during this day they ask about gifts I tell them "remember I gifted you so and so on this date of the year".. :P :-)...thanks god rakhabandhan day comes once in a year otherwise my sisters would have kept asking me for gifts more than once in a year.. huh..!! :D :D...all these years, this day, when I was with them at home and probably the most naughty family member I used to tell my sisters "kya, kya hoga is patle dhage ke bandhane se...sab bekar hai.." they simply give me a smile on this by just asking "tu kya gift de raha hai mujhe?"..and my reply would be "jab kamaoonga tab de doonga, ek dhage ka gift maang rahe ho...sharm karo"...now it has been 7 years that I am  living away from my home distant from my sisters and parents...the thing is that I don't miss the rope/dhaga that they used to tie on my hand but the conversations we had after the ceremony..they looking at me, my hand and smiling, repeatedly asking for gifts and asking for a bigger gift because I will be gifting them for roughly 16-17 years' of rakhi...more than that I miss being with them and playing with them, arguing with them, making different different faces to their arguments, giggling at them...life was unimaginably more funful at home with my sisters and parents....they looking at my teeth while I am sleeping and murmuring how yellow they are and laughing among themselves...failing to wake up after my mom's 10 calls they trying to wake me up by tickling me because they exactly know my weakness...at first not giving me my bhindi ki subzi mom has prepared and then when I start being angry/crying, they giving me their shares too...when I was 6 years old both of them tried to pull me towards their side by pulling my hands one for each..they were playing tug-of-war with me being the rope..and physically my elder sister is stronger than younger sister, so you could imagine who won but the thing is in her winning I played a major role, she pulled my arm so strong and sudden that I was with some fracture for a month or two...I felt the pain for a moment but then I was all happy as my mom's full attention was at me and also people were saying oh you take care don't study too much or write too much... :-)...
whatever..life's fun seems to be fading away...now that my niece has taken my role in family, being the youngest one, I enjoy a different kind of enjoyment...seeing her act in many different and weird ways keeps asking me the question.."why does childhood goes away?"...anyways tomorrow is rakshabandhan and I am all happy that I am going to tie the rakhi by myself 7th time successively...some relations are just too sweet and naive to forget about and maintain, whatever the situation may come...is bhai-behen ke relation ko kisi ki nazar na lage..!! Love you sisters, love you totally... keep :-) ...